Monday, April 8, 2019
Penned down emotions @ 3:34 AM

Dreams

Dreams they haunt me so
Just like my favourite show
But only I can't control it
As if I never owned it

They take me to places
Put in all familiar faces
Made it seem like I belonged here
Then I wake to an immense fear

Had I lost all I desired,
The dreams I had admired?
Are they not part of my past
The times I had -- a blast?

I remember what I see,
What I feel inside of me
I long for insanely
For t'was my reality

But the days aren't the worst
To know the world is cursed
Good days and bad nights
Good nights and bad days

Dreams they haunt me so
Like the wind that'll only blow
A direction each time
Catching me at my prime

They take me to places
Put me through phases
I was high, then low the next
Convinced fate was fixed

The days aren't the worst
But to know this first
Just when you live your best
You're only put to the test

Dreams they haunt me so
As much as I let them flow
On days I lose control
I let them swallow me whole

Just like reality
The same it is to me
Joy and comfort it brings
Relief and pain it stings
Knowing these times could be the worst
The world that is cursed.

Saturday, July 29, 2017
Penned down emotions @ 7:49 AM

Falling

Falling through the cracks
Getting lost between
Hearing it for others,
Hearing it for myself

Falling through but
Rising up again
Yet falling
Falling through but
Not quite all the way
Suspended in a thin layer
of nothingness

Falling through the cracks
Getting lost in between
Fine lines of fine lines
Yet found
And carried

Will be buried
While falling,
While failing
Yet One does not let me
Therefore I can’t myself

Falling,
Still falling.

Friday, July 28, 2017
Penned down emotions @ 5:06 PM

Breathing

Blanket over my head
Days stretched over me
Inhale
Exhale

Let the sun pour in
And the moon mourn
From dawn to dusk
And dusk to dawn
Inhale
Exhale

I’ll let tears sink into my ears
Blocking off these fears
I can’t see, I can’t hear
I won’t know, I won’t bear the weight

All I’ll ever know
Inhale
Exhale
The best thing
Inhale
Comfort from these sheets
Exhale
Rest
And rest.

Monday, July 24, 2017
Penned down emotions @ 2:47 PM

House of Infinity

I don't want to feel
The worst, hurt, thirst
To rob another of joy
A momentary rejoice fuelling
A sweet revenge

Endless weights
On the house of cards
Fused, bruised, feels blue
They assume it withstands
But it falls defeated
And through the floor it goes
On to the next target

House of infinity
Tallest in the world
To escape for an eternity,
A mystery
Yet made known to me
Still, in a maze amazed
Thrown off by
Its complexity, cunningness, cornering
Shielding every opportunity

Breathe
While you still can.

Thursday, July 20, 2017
Penned down emotions @ 3:42 AM

Untitled

Kind silence for dislike,
Hostility looms around Grace
It but only takes a single strike
To find yourself displaced

Be aware, if not on your toes,
The one who sleeps
Greater are those who love their foes,
But woe to those whose love they keep

They take an eye for an eye;
A tooth for a tooth
Hate begets Hate,
but Regret is not too late

In every corner, every bend,
You will surely not miss
A Sign of righteousness
You can’t quickly dismiss

It hovers around like a bright light
Exposing every thorn and every blight
In hopes to someday restore

But listen while you can
And do what you must
Before it will be no more
And everything to ashes and dust.

Monday, July 17, 2017
Penned down emotions @ 4:53 PM

Beneath the Shed

Nothing tied to another,
Nothing lighter than a feather,
It is all too easy
Beneath the shed

I lay here as I watch
The leaves dancing with the wind,
Flowers giggling and
Trees swaying from side to side

Nothing tied to another,
Nothing much to bother,
It is all too easy
Beneath the shed

Then I wander
Around tangled bushes
Playing with things that
Have yet to exist or are non-existent

I hide my face
Yet I remember the hidden grace
A blessing in disguise
Forgetfulness hides
These frowns

Some things tied to another
Some things to bother

She strolls from one end to the other,
He mumbles, tumbles, fumbles,
But they all arrived home
Safe and sound

Some things tied to another,
Some things to bother,
But we all come home eventually
Beneath the shed

Monday, July 18, 2016
Penned down emotions @ 1:29 AM

Keep loving

Keep loving
When all hearts turn to stone
When the walls of the enemy is as hard as steel
That all your arrows ricochet
When it gets dark
For darkness absorbed all the light
All but yours;
A flame joyfully dancing about

Keep loving
Your heart will bleed, but you'll love again
Because that is what you are inclined to do
Keep loving
Your innocence shines through
It will guide you

Keep loving
To add oil to your flame
A love that spreads like wildfire
Cannot be tamed, if you
Keep loving, keep loving.

Friday, June 24, 2016
Penned down emotions @ 1:16 AM

What We Must

Maybe we could have
Maybe we shouldn't have
But I believe that we do what we must
Not what we can
For such little time we have
Yet so much to do
We mustn't lose focus
On our true enemy
On our true goal
Then maybe
Just maybe
We'll catch a glimpse of the silver linings
And smile in the thunderstorms.

Sunday, March 20, 2016
Penned down emotions @ 9:59 PM

Piece by Piece

Piece by piece
I fixed up my dream
My passion never ceased
As I built up my self-esteem

Day by day
My tower grew higher
From time to time, it'd sway
But it stayed and grew bolder

When it covered the sun
Everything got darker
This was supposed to be fun
But I learnt as I grew older

What it meant to be naive
What it meant to grow up
What it meant to believe
In miracles when you show up
At the door, determined
Triumphing over your fears
Critics and hypocrites dampened
Their frowns disappear

Piece by piece
You restore that dream
Relight the passion and carry on
Building your self-esteem

Day by day
Your tower grows stronger
From time to time, it sways
But you have an anchor

You learn to never give up
Chase after every silver lining
Because piece by piece
You know you'd be a better being.

Saturday, February 14, 2015
Penned down emotions @ 1:54 AM

In Time

Go on, paint your walls
The world is full of wonderful things
Watch the rain fall
Hear every drop sing

Open your eyes
But don't let the sand slip
Through the cracks

These holes will be filled
With every drop of love
Light as a feather
Sweet as honey
Warm as a sweater

But the itch of the feather
A snake in disguise
Flowers wither
Submerged in a pool of strife

Stand on your ground
Boulders to rocks,
Rocks to grain stones,
Grain stones to sand
Don't let go
Even if there's only air
Beneath your feet

I told you
Everything in its time
The hour hand, an old man
Like sipping wine

Let your fingers intertwine
With the colors of every second
Thorns are near;
Your darkest fears
Everything in its time

Rose gardens, pure tulips,
Wet soil, Mountain dew
The winds fold in, embracing
A rushing river, light shivers
Love is kind
Everything in its time

I told you
Everything in its time
The hour hand, an old man
Like sipping wine.

Friday, December 12, 2014
Penned down emotions @ 10:37 PM

Can't

Can't find
The key
To the treasure chest
With your heart
Can't find
No rest

Can't deny
Can't close an eye
Sleep overtaking
But I
Can't be sleeping

Can't try
Don't know how
Can't breathe
Can't make no sound
Can't, can't, can't.

Penned down emotions @ 10:35 PM

Stone

It weighs my heart down like a stone
If the wind blew
Would it take away everything?
Take away all of me

Swollen eyes and pink nose
My sweater, keeping me warm,
Keeping me safe,
Keeping me company,
Giving me love

They look and see
With concern and slight nervousness
It's okay, it's normal,
I tell myself
Let the feathers fall
Let tears fall
Let the birds rest under the narrow shelter
When they need to

But deep inside,
I don't want their pity
I need a place to dwell in
I need a place to hide
From these faces looming, zooming
Into my face

I hear from them
About special fruits
That when its beautiful flower petals fall
An exotic fruit emerges
Colorful or dull,
Exquisite taste
Or poisonous
It flushes your intestines out

Would I stay
Would I stray
Come what may
I'll figure it out somehow.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Penned down emotions @ 2:51 PM

War

Parched throat
Dried & shriveled hands
I do not have time
Not enough to bring me there
These legs, heavy as anchors
My shadow haunts me
Tied to the guilt of yesterday

Yesterday orange, today blue,
It might be red or purple tomorrow
I do not have time
Not enough to bring me there
Every vein,
Every artery,
Beckons to surrender
To collapse into clouds
Pain & Torment
Glasses of Memories shatter

Still, this thin rope I cling on to
What held me on before
Could not hold me
Will this do?
I have no choice
I do not have time
I must get there
Before sunrise.

Monday, February 10, 2014
Penned down emotions @ 10:08 PM

Love

Soft, silky caramel hair

Sunday, November 24, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 1:29 AM

Still

Tie my hands to my back
I've cut myself enough slack
It's time to take a deep breath
Hold it in, then count to ten

Close those eyes that distract
They pull me away from what's real
Eyes that judge what their vision covers
Yet it's me, what I see, they steal

Tie and bind them to my back
Close those eyes, skills I lack
Chew on words in the air
Let it sink beneath all that hair

For I rest not till dawn
I rest not till my heart is gone
Let the hands run around the clock
While I stay awake and still as a rock

Monday, November 11, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 4:40 PM

All This While

Cold, warm, I can't decide
Rough, gentle, I hope you don't mind
If I stayed for awhile, a little longer,
To be by your side

I can't tear my gaze from your eyes
There's something you remind me of deep inside
A secret bond, our lives intertwined
That day when you sat by my side

Wishing I could tear down these walls
I wish I would dare to make that phone call
I'm sure she'll notice,
I'm sure she'll smile that same smile
I've waited all this while

Like, love, I can't decide
Bitter, sweet, I hope you don't mind
What you see outside isn't me on the inside
I hope you wouldn't mind

I'm not like those other guys
Lifting weights & charming you with their blue eyes
And then bringing you to high-class restaurants
I hope you don't mind
I hope you wouldn't mind

Wishing I could tear down these walls
I wish I would dare to make that phone call
I'm sure she'll notice,
I'm sure she'll smile that same smile
I've waited all this while
I've waited all this while

When she walks down that aisle
I'm gonna be brave, I'm gonna cut to the chase
Girl I can't grant you all the things in this world
But know, I'll be yours

Wishing I could now tear down these walls
I hope I would not trip and fall
I'm sure she'll notice,
And I'll be there to see..
That same smile, when she looks at me
That same smile
I've waited all this while
Oh I've waited all this while
All this while

Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 11:25 PM

To The End

With a heavy heart I lift my pen,
I try to sew, I try to mend
I try to lift my head up again
I picked myself up, but fell on sand

Take me now, don't wait till then
I don't wish to stay here till the end
I'll write a last song, leave it for a friend
I hope she'll listen to the end
I hope she'll listen to the end

Strange roads to strange places
Broken frames, charred edges
Empty houses & buried faces
The echoing cries & dry voices

Take me now, don't wait till then
I don't wish to stay here till the end
I'll write a last song, leave it for a friend
I hope he'll listen to the end
I hope he'll listen to the end

Gripping sand, letting go
Where the wind takes it, I don't know
I lay in the waters under a rainbow
Where it takes me, I don't know

Take me now, don't wait till then
I don't wish to stay here till the end
I'll write a last song, leave it for a friend
I hope they'll listen to the end
I hope they'll listen to the end

Breathing in, one last breath
I closed my eyes with no regrets
All that's left, life meets death
All I know, I now forget

Take me now, don't wait till then
I don't wish to stay here till the end
With this last song I leave for my friends
I hope they'll listen to the end
I hope they'll listen to the end

Sunday, August 18, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 2:04 AM

Burden

A burden weighing my heart down
A silent cry, a sorrowful frown
A wish that could not be made
Secretly, from history, it'll fade

But what can be compared with this
If not the great history till this day exists
My deafening cries won't awaken the sun
Nor tear open the heavens from above

Everything I see and touch
Nothing I own and such
The empty space in between
Yellow and Evergreen

Have I a part, a heart
Or can I only appreciate art
Yet this pain resides within
This seemingly black, dark sin

A burden weighing my heart down
A silent cry, a sorrowful frown
See the raindrops fall, hear no sound
Pitter-patter, pitter-patter, as they hit the ground.

Friday, August 9, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 4:42 AM

Stand tall, Stand Strong

I wrote this in memory of those who died fighting for my country.

Sunday, April 28, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 11:50 PM

Beyond

Calm winds combing through trees

Friday, April 19, 2013
Penned down emotions @ 9:51 PM

Little world of mine

Little world of mine
Everything goes on fine
Love and Joy roam
In this place I call home
Quiet streets,
Quiet paths,
Hear every beat
of every heart
Each a different pace,
Each a story to tell
Behind every face
Deep inside their shell
In my little world
Perfect, but strange
Shiny like a pearl
But locked in a cage
Little world of mine
Only one could see
But those willing to find,
Can join me.