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At the touch of love, everyone becomes a poet.
submerging in a pool of uncontrollable emotions.

Monday, March 29, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Everyday a torture to me
Walking pass you, a big blow
In my arms and chest I bury
To you, I was merely your shadow

Indeed, no match for him
I can only watch at a distance
The light in my heart is growing dim
Resolving to nothing but silence.

Everyday I see a potato in the mirror
On my right elbow, a scarred blister
You're right, stop telling yourself you are
Standard-wise comparison is so far!

No match for him nor her
My heart's light now growing dimmer
Hardening and turning colder
Am I to stay this way forever?

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Saturday, March 27, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Walking to the end of the narrow road
Across thorns and flowers down the pathway
The leaves around me - the last wind - billowed
All my fears and sorrows blown away

Walking to the end of the narrow road
Fearless of what may come day after tomorrow
As I keep walking further on, my heart glowed
Yearning to see the bright virgin snow

Walking to the end of the narrow road
I turned around, felt my heart explode
But I decided not to follow the trail
For I know it's mysteries would unveil.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

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Every time I see you
my heart full of pain
My face always smiling
but my heart is full of tears.

I held your hand so tight,
so that you wont go.
When I saw you suffer,
thousand tears coming down from my eyes.

That night you leave me,
I cry so hard.
Before you go
You said to me:

''My dear dear darling,
keep your tears in your eyes.
Let me see your smile again,
Then I will rest in peace...''

tablechair;zowee!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Have been taking too many joy rides
Have been breaking too many rules
Mischieviously, once done, hides
No one cares about this girl, in this world.

She loves her friends
Though she does not know
Hoping it would not end
She's just going with the flow

Many things done in secret
The problem then descends
Many things done in private
For the sake of keeping her friends

If only they could see what she does
Be grateful and return a smile
Only then will her heart feel
At the fullest of ease for awhile

But she still carried on helping
Till she broke down and couldn't help it
Cried,
Cried all day long,
Though she tried to stay strong,
She knew she could not do so for long.

Rested for awhile,
Till she could draw a smile
On her face, still, in secret,
She continues doing the same thing over and over again.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Monday, March 22, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Tears welled up in my eyes
Trickling down my cheeks
Thinking it's all over
But it's just the beginning

Trapped in a square box
While the world carries on
What lies within me is a fox,
Waiting for a prey to hunt on.

Is the evil really taking over?
Are the angels not here around me?
Tied down to the floor with guilt,
Yet it was willing to set me free.

Trapped in a guilty space
Wishing to get out of this place
Would it release me once again?
Or would it let me suffer in pain?

Did it really free me completely
Or was it just my hallucination?
Can it separate me from the pain?
I do not wish to leave in vain.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Friday, March 19, 2010
Penned down emotions @

I thought before I first saw you,
I knew what love was.
That, I later found, to be false.
You showed me the meaning of True love.

I loved you with all my heart,
I gave you everything I had to give.
I thought our loved would last a lifetime,
I was the only one, though,

You already knew it wouldn't be forever.
You tried to tell me.
I always chose not to listen.
I only heard what my heart was telling me.

If I could go back in time and change things,
I wouldn't. I always want the memories
of you and I together, the way we were -
Happy for the most part.

I love you still,
And I always will.
But today my life starts over,
Starts over without you.

This will be a tough journey for me,
But I know I will make it.

Life does go on.

tablechairzowee!

Thursday, March 18, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Looking in your eyes
I feel myself falling in love with you
You said I love you
And I said it too

We went to our very own special spot
For no real reason at all
We sat and talked and looked at one another
And then the rain began to fall

We could have left just as quick as we came
But no, you wanted to stay in the rain
You asked me a question I’ll never forget
Have you ever tasted the raindrops?

I looked at you funny and you gave me a sigh
The cutest look, as I wondered, why?
Why, did you ask me to taste the rain?
Well, what did have to loose or gain?

I watched you with a careful eye
And did the same as you
You were looking up at the cloudy sky
But my eyes were stuck on you like glue

I lifted my head to look at the sky
And closed my eyes really tight
Just as I thought I’d caught a raindrop
You suddenly held me tight

I opened my eyes with slight alarm
As you kissed me soft and sweet
I remember that kiss like it was yesterday
I still feel those raindrops on my cheek

I tasted the raindrops like I never had before
It was worth every second of bliss
Every time I think of that moment
I think of my raindrop kiss

We sat close together on that one special rock
And we held each other tight
Then almost as suddenly as it came
The sun came out from beneath the rain

The most beautiful colors I’ve ever seen
Came out on the western sky
The sun was setting and the moment was perfect
More than any money could buy

As the sun slowly set and the sky lit up
You began carving our names in our special rock
I told you I would never forget this moment
In my heart this memory is locked

As our names were finished and permanently engraved
We watched the sun finish its day
We slowly got up to leave this place
Which was a year ago this May

I haven’t been to that spot in a year
Where did all the time go?
I will visit this place alone this time
And I will finally have to let go

This memory will be in my heart forever
But you will not remain in my mind
I don’t know if that love, will be seen again
For that love I cannot find

I will go to this spot as we promised we would
But you will not be there this time
Why is it that you can’t keep your promise?
I know that I’m keeping mine

Never again will I taste the raindrops
The way I did with you
And when I go to this spot again
I will say goodbye to you.

tablechair!zowee!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Walked down the wide path,
Side by side we marched forth
Away from the narrow warpath,
Hence, we headed North.

Gigglings and felicities envelops the past,
A new beginning crowned with beatitude.
Taking down the coat of the outcast,
The old tailor-made coat renewed.

Fun, joy and laughter;
Like candy coated in sugar
A serum injected in me
Resulted a feel so carefree

Again we walked down the wide path,
Still we stayed close together
Nothing could separate us, because we have something
We can share with each other, that'll last forever.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days

and wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep and insightful

as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared

like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand

why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning

and be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

tablechair;zowee!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Penned down emotions @

A warm sensation fills my body
My heart races with every touch
The softness of your voice soothes
My soul

As I lay there hoping the moment
Will never end
Calling out for you
Praying that you'll never let me go

The sensation so strong
I can no longer feel my body
Slowly I fade in and out of reality
In an instant the warm sensation

Fades away
My heart empty
My soul torn apart
Lying there; wondering where I went
Wrong

Calling out for you, only to find
there is no answer
My mind invaded with thoughts
So cruel and unrefined

The sensation of fear of what's to come
Slowly the reality over powering
The lust and fantasy
Leaving me empty

Confused on how to think or feel
The loneliness I feel
So wretched and compelled
Betrayal to myself
Revealing the terrors of my love

tablechair;zowee!

Penned down emotions @

Amidst the bustling crowd
Stood still a little girl
Like a lost moon and cloud
In this cold, cold world.

She tries to interact
With little talks and smiles.
The painter paints an abstract
Compiling of confusing styles.

No one bothers to talk back
She is unsure of how to react
This tragedy that has yet to end
A funeral she does not wish to attend.

No one bothers to tell her to go away
With every ignorant step they take,
Every step that causes much delay,
She perseveres through heartbreak.

She falls and hit her head,
Ended up in a hospital bed
Yet no one visits her
She feels like a failure

The girl that had minimum expectations,
Yet none has been ticked off the list
Not even a reply was easy from humans,
She pens down the meeting with aliens she hopes, exist

All alone in this cold, cold world
Stood this lonely little girl
Solemn music seems to play forever,
She wonders if she should surrender.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

yea............................. sorry 'bout that :\

I'm probably gonna be EXTREEEEEMELY busy this week and I was thinking maybe, you know, for a change.... once in awhile give this kinda statements.. NOT SAYING IT'S TRUE AH! It's just from my perspective. Don't be judgemental. just read and go away, kay? ;) Simple and easy now.

To live, you must have an everlasting purpose. If the purpose is simple; easy to attain, then the purpose would no longer sustain. You'd achieve it at a lower level, achieving smaller goals. If the purpose is everlasting; difficult to attain, then the purpose would keep you moving on till you reach it. And through the process, you'd find yourself to be different for the better or worse - hopefully better - and learn many new things that you can apply into your daily lives.

GAHH :\ that's just something I felt was true. IN MY VIEW AHHH!! ._.

Okay. I don't think I'll be writing poems for quite some time. Let's seHH... er.. tml definitely NONONO, wednesday maybe can, thursday and friday, hopefully can, sat and sun is a definite NONONONONONO {:

Zoey shall keep you guys entertained. MUAHA! thanks zoey! *off for vacation~~*

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Monday, March 15, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight

Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul

A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave

Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see?

tablechair;zowee!

Penned down emotions @

The feeling that was meant for you
Is the feeling I tried to hide
A feeling which is painful and true
A feeling I wish would subside

But can't you see it's hard for me to let this feeling go
To hide the pain and misery to let this feeling show
Now I understand that I must look for someone new
Because even though I tried to hide, this feeling left me blue

Seeing you holding someone else's hand
Thinking to myself "This isn't what I planned"
I didn't think you would fall for someone else this deep
I didn't think my world would suddenly be so steep

But then I realized, maybe it's better this way
Maybe we weren't meant to be
Maybe we should just stay this way
I guess I should just wish that our friendship will be bound to last
Instead of just wishing I could be a part of your past

tablechair; zowee!

Sunday, March 14, 2010
Penned down emotions @

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am
I can only look to me
to find the way it all began -

this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss.

Could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
Could it be that I am lonely,
or seek happiness at any cost?

This never-ending Something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide

tablechair;zowee

Penned down emotions @

I've steadily turned up the volume
I've carefully put it on surround
Every so often I'd scream
Just to see if you'd notice the sound

I tried to make you listen
I tried to make you see
That inside me is a person
Who just wants to make you believe

I pushed you further and further
I pushed as far as I could
But I never do anything right
Not even my opinion is good

I am giving up
I am giving in
For alone I can never lose
but I never wanted to win

tablechair; zowee

Penned down emotions @

Standing on soft and luxurious sand
Mini waves folded in with the tide
It nibbled my skin as I stand
As I observed the noontide

As wide as the azure sky may be,
Cloudless sky stretched across the sea
Engulfed in the mysteries of tomorrow
Still my face, with happiness, aglow

Sun beams yawned across the wide ocean
Leisurely reached its way to my feet
The sun stretched and had risen
Started work giving light and heat

There it discerned an incandescent light
On the horizon after the cool night
Foreseeing this very day would come
Overflowing with joy of freedom!

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Saturday, March 13, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Night devours the morn'
Shimmering waters, calm
There a new life is born
His existence in our hearts'll embalm

Of this person we must commemorate
To sacrifice, a follower to His plan
As we gather in His presence and wait,
We retire from the bad deeds of man

Immersed in the pool of strife
We call out to His name
Leading a whole new life
No longer the same

Give thanks and praise unto His name
For He deserves all glory and praise
No longer trapped in a mortal game
Free from sin, free from the craze

A true saviour,
God our Father,
Infinite, merciful and gracious,
Beloved Son, Jesus.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

As the scarlet sunset slowly fades,
And dusk introduces the night,
The crescent moon on center stage,
Gives forth a semblance of light.

Perching on the mossy dock,
Staring out at the mirrored lake,
I reflect on this new battle,
Unsure of which road to take.

In this dark serenity,
I humbly look up to You,
Asking for Your guidance,
To show me what I must do.

Gulls appearing as angels,
Are soaring through the skies,
A congregation of wispy clouds,
Have taken control of my eyes.

Billowing sleeves of purest white,
Seem coming through the haze,
Majestic, gentle, outstretched arms,
At once command my gaze.

Asking for some answers,
You've come with Your embrace,
Through the just born evening,
You've filled me with Your grace.

The water without a ripple,
Reflects this scene from above,
A most magnificent masterpiece,
Painted wholly with Your love.

tablechair;zowee

Thursday, March 11, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Kayys. PEEPS! Gonna introduce one of my friends here.. She'll be joining in writing poems with me in this blog website ((:

Name : Zoey {Calls herself zowee}
Age : Same as me
DOB : 23/8/95
Blood group? I have no idea =x
She loves piglet, and in the "links" tab, "piglet" is her name for her blog link to her own blog, yeah? :D

Okay. Back to business. She and I will be writing poems here and you can take note who writes what by identifying the signature signing off part. Sometimes we may also have like, a poem written together, so we'll write both our names. Er... kay. I'm just rubbish-ing now cos basically I just want it to look nice and long, as a "proper" introduction =x

Well, then. I guess that's all for today now (:

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

Picked up my bag
Tied my shoes
I started my journey
To look for clues

Questions that popped into my head
Caused me to be bemused
It was with me since I was in bed
Til now, I have no answer to it

Walked right into the jungle
Tried to find my answers there
Only ended up being a bungle
Now a fool who no longer wants to care

Stomping back home to the front door
Opening it and slamming it behind me
Swinged my bag to the floor
For the rest of the day, acted crazily

It's been a few days
No news was heard
Ever since the outbreak
This is absurd!

It's not going to be direct
I guess I'll have to do it again
I can't keeping avoiding the fact
Too long, I've been holding in the pain

I'm going to do what's right
Friends can't stop me now
Gonna be using all my might
Gonna defeat this somehow.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Penned down emotions @

It's hard to hint it to you
This matter I'm trying to get to
It's not funny and a laughing matter
Just expressed in a way I prefer;

An explosion took place
A few days ago
It's all part of the phase
I guess I have to stay low

I ran as fast as I could
Paused for awhile as I should
Realising who I've left behind
Realising I've lost what's mine

Everything used to be okay
Now I have nothing to say
Wanted to maintain a smile everyday
But all I'm left with are fake smiles on display.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Penned down emotions @

I tried to not take it to heart
But I guess I have been weak
I'm afraid it is tearing apart
For the limit has reached its peak

Heart shattered into a million pieces
Not a single one attached to another
Still the suffering had yet ceases
Still it beats steady and proper

I can't use a needle and a thread
I'll only make it worse instead
I gotta hurry and find a way
To mend it before the end of day

Of sure this little heart is weak
But a strong answer it's yet to seek
Endeavor to find this answer quick
Avoiding satan's naughty trick

You've hurt me deeply
Though unknowlingly
I do not bear a grudge against you
For I have my rights too

Trying to stay strong on the outside
Though I'm weak on the inside
Trying my best to mend this broken heart
Before my soul from my heart departs.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

Decisions are tough to make
Sometimes I'm stuck in a situation
That, for somebody else's sake
I have to make an exception

One or two times is fine with me
But when it became a routine
Decisions were made tearfully
It was all like a tragic scene

As each day passes by
Each decision I make with a sigh
For I feel so drained
With my heart, to its limit, strained.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Monday, March 8, 2010
Penned down emotions @

It was since childhood
I'd been staying far away
I wanted only if I could
But to join in and play

Years later, I grew older
Matured and became a teen
Things stayed the same, rather
Lonely and still plain jean

I heard many lectures
From people and my peers
To fail is most definitely okay
To give up, prepare for a price to pay

Many have gone through it all
They've benefited from this
But all I had was a fall
Hope shattered into pieces of debris

I sat alone in the quiet room
There in the corner I gloom
With my only friend beside me
I looked at my teddy with much glee.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Sunday, March 7, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Taking time to find ways
To begin the amendments
To start the beginning phase
Starting to sew the problems

Halfway done but a problem surfaced
A lady came to me and said
Your future problems faced
I'll help you if I get paid

I passed on the needle and thread to her
She smiled and nodded her head
A needle through and under
I should've foresee the next problem ahead

I had no money left
Time passed so quickly
I had no choice but to break down
For to me, it happened so suddenly

I had to sew it for her
I had to put my heart and soul into it
Then the needle poked through my skin
Pain was like when I squeezed my zit

Other problems started to surface
I got distracted and bumps bulged out
It was disfigured and looked out of place
I looked at it, fill with doubt

I can't give this
Forget it - it's over
This oppportunity I'm willing to miss
It's not worth to hover

It's over, I told myself
I cried and curled up in a corner
Like an old book on an abandoned shelf
Left in my solitary.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Penned down emotions @

Playing the piano
Playing the guitar
It didn't work though
Venting my anger

Complained like a spoilt brat
Get friendly advices back
This is this, that is that
Okay, this time, I'll keep track

Never meant it to happen
It just went with the flow
Of the weirdest articulation
Life is so different now

Reminding myself to exercise
I get two benefits anyway
One to become slim in size
Two to vent my anger till I'm okay

I gotta stop doing it
I must control my emotions
First thing to throw bad stuff in a pit
Then write 'never come back' in captions

Throwing it away and burying it with strength
I'm satisfied with this solution itself
Digging and burying it into a pit
Gone is the past and welcome my new self.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Friday, March 5, 2010
Penned down emotions @

Whenever I open the book of memories
I gain a sense of peace
The warmth surrounds me
Able to think of but not see

As I flipped each page
One at a time
Sometimes I rage
Sometimes spirited with blithe

Whenever I think of the past
There's a sudden urge to shed a tear
Maybe because I knew it didn't last
And I held on to something so dear

Wishing to flip to the front page
Then rewrite the book again
Correcting bad parts
Removing scenes of pain

The happy moments shall stay
So I can think of them everyday
How I wish I could go back to the olden days
And do things in a better way

I want to go back
Back to the past
To make a change
To make it last.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Thursday, March 4, 2010
Penned down emotions @

On the grass I laid
Under the night sky
I see the bright stars
And a shooting star zoom by

I closed my eyes
Took a deep breath
Scenes of hearing people's cries
And scenes of people's death

I wished upon the star
To wish it'd all go away
I wished my mind would wander far
Was there any other way?

Everything was perfect
Just the way it is
Didn't think of how I'd react
Of them I currently miss

Matters dragged on for too long
Stretching all the suffering
Just who was wrong?
I'm still wondering

And so I wish upon this star
To help me find the truth
To help me to think far
To let go of the ruth.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

Monday, March 1, 2010
Penned down emotions @

There it was before me
The truth laid out by itself
All so suddenly and unexpectedly
I started to blame myself

It's my fault for doing so
And not obeying Him right
I could not respond to a 'no'
Some things I could not take flight

It takes courage to do things
Especially when it's compulsory
There the guilt in my heart rings
When I don't follow it obediently

My heart cries and long for more
More forgiveness or more lust
My heart stands alone to decide
Forgiveness - then other thoughts shall turn to dust.

There the truth laid before me
I had to tend to it sooner or later
Breaking it down one by one silently
Trying not to affect her

Though guilt grabs my heart tightly
Til it starts to bleed profusely
I still have a promise I must fulfill
Climbing up that mountainous hill.

CHECKMATE! Yumeitto .

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