Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Penned down emotions @ 1:01 AM

Truth & Answers

Here I stand still
On the placid hill
Still wondering why
No wings grew on me to fly

Words in the past ..

In confusion and frustration
I'm still longing for an answer
Until the day I sleep in my coffin
I'll find it for sure

Recalling the moments
Of times in your abscence
Alone, I sat in the corner
In my own world, a loner

Then I'd go to school
With my shadow
Looking like a fool
As I call out to it below

Shuffling of feet
Going up the stairs
As everyone's eyes - to mine - meet
Leave on me, I swear

Gossips and laughter
Abandoned, forlorn,
As one says,
Betraying a friend,
Is like getting your own heart torn

As days get by
Cold-blooded features form
For ten thousand times I sigh
Awaiting for the next storm

Scrutinizing information clammed together
All in my room, school and mind
To treasure my last moments with you forever
Before I turn blind

And so I sang
all the words in this letter
As a loud bang
Followed right after

Gunshot through my head
Letter landed on my bed
My first smile,
In decades,
Just in awhile
Everything fades

"To my dear friend,
I've given you all my working notes
All my money to spend,
All my warmest coats

Gave you all the solutions
To all your problems
Donated all my organs
In case you need them

To my dear friend,
Your importance to me, to all transcend
Live your life
Not with strife,
Live it to the fullest
Because you're still alive!

To my dear friend,
I've been waiting all my life
To lend you a helping hand
I hope I did enough .."

Those moments never forgotten
those answers hold no more value
For revenge no longer tasted sweet
For I tasted compromising defeat ..

But still I long for the truth
For the saying goes:
"The truth shall set you free"
Maybe it works, but who knows?

And so I wait
yet patiently on this hill
For the opening gate
Of answers, for my empty heart to fill.

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